Of new beginings

On new years, my friend came up with a random suggestion out of the blue while we were
digging into our meaty feast.
A recall of the good and bad things in 2014. and after each recall, followed by a toast.

Now 10 days later, the truth was that the sole reason why my eyes are filled with tears is because ive found out that those toasts meant new beginings. it didnt matter what the toast was about. the toast had brought me to this realisation.
going to london was a mark that i had close my india chapter. 8 more months till final year ends will also mark the end of the indian connection. goodbyes to friends whom i loving said wasted 5 years of my life with. hello to whatever path i will choose.
its the insecurities i feel, the fear of the unknown that brings tears to my soul. the memories that sometimes reminded me of lost time, lost youth and lost innocence.

getting out of my comfort zone is scary.
i wonder what will this transcend to be. life is full of surprises. i can never tell.
one thing is for sure im turning back to my old self. not quite to the old self but getting there.  maybe thats what wisdom truly is.